Needless to say, I suck at life. Keeping up with with this blog was supposed to be a commitment for me but that obviously that didn't happen.
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| (taken freshman year for Midsummer's Jersey [only show I did]) Anyways, here's a mini-update so the school year just started, I'm a sophomore. This year I'm doing costumes for ze drama club and so far it's okay. I've meet new people and gotten closer with some friends, life is good except I've had this struggle. I have so many creative ideas in my brain and sometimes they will keep me up at night. The thing is I don't have an outlet to be creative. Also, I keep doubting myself, if I do bring my ideas to life and find some outlet then I feel like no one is going to care. Who's going to care? Do people need to care? Personally, I think creativity should be shared but people don't always pay attention but do people need to pay attention? There's a HUGE part of my that wants my ides to be heard/seen but a really small part of me is like why not do it for myself? I always get so many ideas really late at night and I never know what I'm supposed to do or how to execute like it seems really strange but it's just those things that you have to learn yourself. And I haven't which makes me really frustrated. I felt like costume could be my outlet but I feel like no one is listening (don't take it personally). Anyways, by 'ideas' I mean like fashion stuff. My goal in life is to go to college/uni to study something I love rather than study something 'practical' and for me that's fashion so yeah that's life for me. |
