Let's Recap.......

So 2015 is gone.......

I'd like to say that I did all this cool stuff and changed the world and maybe found a way to stop global warming but...I didn't.

Instead.....

I would consider this one of the worst years because I missed my friends a lot this year and didn't see them as much as I would've like too. (I moved before freshman year, a sophomore).

This year I want too.....

Be active on this damn thing!!!

I need to push myself to go after things that i want because I'm a huge procrastinator but there's so much I want to do. some of which that I can do but never do it.

Anyways......

My last moments of 2015, were spent watching skins (highly recommend definitely going to do some posts about that) and listening to the "If I Stay" movie soundtrack (also recommend)

You don't me.....

that well, so my idea is to do a 'get to me' type tag from YouTube and do it in writing.

Have a great 2016!!!

Sucking at Life

Needless to say, I suck at life. Keeping up with with this blog was supposed to be a commitment for me but that obviously that didn't happen. 

(taken freshman year for Midsummer's Jersey [only show I did])

Anyways, here's a mini-update so the school year just started, I'm a sophomore. This year I'm doing costumes for ze drama club and so far it's okay. I've meet new people and gotten closer with some friends, life is good except I've had this struggle. I have so many creative ideas in my brain and sometimes they will keep me up at night. The thing is I don't have an outlet to be creative. Also, I keep doubting myself, if I do bring my ideas to life and find some outlet then I feel like no one is going to care. Who's going to care? Do people need to care? Personally, I think creativity should be shared but people don't always pay attention but do people need to pay attention? There's a HUGE part of my that wants my ides to be heard/seen but a really small part of me is like why not do it for myself? I always get so many ideas really late at night and I never know what I'm supposed to do or how to execute like it seems really strange but it's just those things that you have to learn yourself. And I haven't which makes me really frustrated. I felt like costume could be my outlet but I feel like no one is listening (don't take it personally). Anyways, by 'ideas' I mean like fashion stuff. My goal in life is to go to college/uni to study something I love rather than study something 'practical' and for me that's fashion so yeah that's life for me. 

  

My Current Fave Music

(who knows if this will be a thing but it's a thing now)

I love music and love discovering new artists. I don't actually sing or play an instrument, okay that's a lie, I did play the violin not too long ago but I dropped it going into highschool. I decided on the bus ride home, surrounded by immature boys who think making sex noises is hilarious, that I would list my current favorite songs. I'll make a playlist on my 8tracks and leave the link somewhere. 

Passion Pit- Lifted Up (1985)

any song by this artist will make you want to dance and put you in a good mood 

Mumford and Sons- The Wolf

this band takes a different approach from their usual folk sound for their newest single, it's like their spin off the killers which sounds crazy but either way this song is 'killer' 😉

Cold War Kids- Hang Me Up to Dry

this song is like from 2003 but it's got a really nice beat

Left Alone-Flume

I had discovered this song like a year ago but re-discovered if when I saw an amazing movie (sisterhood of the night)

Running with the Wolves- AURORA

This song reminds me of a Forest, that's all I gotta say about this one.

Purity Ring (newest album)

Anything by them is amazing, the lead singers voice is so ethereal and all the songs are so different but kinda the same.

Cigarette Daydreams- Cage the Elephant

If a Coppola movie can be somehow put into a song, this would be it. It reminded me of 'The Virgin Suicides.'

Running Behind- Holychild

This song is so kitschy not going to lie but in the best way possible.

Girls like you- The Naked and Famous

Fave

Without You-ODESZA

This song....OMG YES

You will recognize the song because they sampled "somebody that I used to know" by Gotye and made a million times better

All you need- PINES

This song has to be blasted in your car on a summer day

RUN- San Cisco

80s vibes anyone?

Que Sera- Wax Tailor

Random but had to put it in here

This is me.

(Yes, that is the title of a Demi Lovato song)

You already know my name because it's somewhere on the screen already. I'll start this by saying (or typing) that never in my life have I stuck with something. I've never been consistent with anything but I'm determined to keep this going for as long as possible. Even if no one reads this, it will still be fun to look back on in a couple of years. 

Now you're probably wondering what this is all about.......

Ever since I was 9, I would draw out designs of many dresses that I wanted to make. I started out wanting to design clothes but currently I'd like to have a career in the fashion industry that has to do with the business side of fashion. Then around 11 years old, I started watching a lot of youtubers like Jenn Im (clothesencounters), Bunny Myer (grav3yardgirl), and so many more. Watching them made me even more interested into fashion. Also, very interested in doing something like that, making videos on youtube. Long story short, didn't happen. Then I started watching a youtuber by the name Lauren Rose (curbsidefashion) who had a blog. I started reading and found it so interesting at how much you can learn from a person without meeting them face to face. Sadly, she stopped making videos but I still follow her blog. Anyways, I decided at 9:50 p.m., I would stop making excuses on doing something that I've wanted to pursue since I was 11 (currently 15 years old). I want this to be a place where I can spill my thoughts but also show off my fashion and other things I'm interested in and would love to discuss with others. 

(on a more technical note)

I will try to post at least 3 times a week.